Sean “Diddy” Combs is working through his grief after the death of his ex-girlfriend Kim Porter.
Porter, who raised four children with Combs, was found dead on Thursday at age 47.
After breaking his silence with a video of the former couple dancing and canoodling for the camera while the model was pregnant, Combs shared a peek at a private memorial he held for Porter on Sunday afternoon. Held at his candle-filled Bel-Air home, about100 family and friends gather to honor Porter, a source tells PEOPLE. Mourners included Pharrell Williams, Mary J. Blige, French Montana and Kourtney Kardashian.
In the Instagram story videos, Combs surveyed six glamorous photos of Porter set up on easels outside a home. On the ground, candles burned.
Combs first commented on the death in an emotional Instagram post. “For the last three days I’ve been trying to wake up out of this nightmare. But I haven’t,” he said. “I don’t know what I’m going to do without you baby. I miss you so much. Today I’m going to pay tribute to you, I’m going to try and find the words to explain our unexplainable relationship.”
“We were more than best friends, we were more than soulmates,” he concluded. “WE WERE SOME OTHER S—!! And I miss you so much. Super Black Love.”